Thursday, December 23, 2010

my friend from sex and slander




one of my favorite people in. the. world. started a blog, called 'sex and slander' (http://sexandslander.blogspot.com) ....she's a funny one, a smart one and a good writer. a lot better than i am.

her thoughts are a good read. maybe that's because i know her so well, although she still surprises me daily. i think we all know, to some extent, the situations she writes about and recognize some of ourselves in her words. she is in love with someone whom she met on the other side of the planet, she's intensely creative, absolutely hilarious, a people person, she coats through life like no one i have ever known and she's a (not uptight) vegan. she's true to herself, good and bad. she's a family person and a lover of all. she's insane and a fellow gemini.

she's amazing and i love her with all my heart.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

WikiLeaks & Ben Bernanke

....i have taken the liberty to share some words with you from a website i like to read every once in a while. if you would like to read the whole article, you can find it on the NIA's website: http://inflation.us/wikileaks.html

"[The] NIA is deeply disturbed by how U.S. politicians and the mainstream media have been calling for WikiLeaks founder Julian Assange to be charged with treason. Some people in Washington are even calling for the assassination of Assange like he is some kind of a terrorist, all because he helped spread the truth about our country's foreign policy and other sensitive topics. The U.S. is in very serious trouble if it has now become a crime to speak the truth.



In recent years with the help of the Internet, there has been a rise in alternative media sites that speak the truth, while the mainstream media has simultaneously experienced collapsing television ratings and newspaper circulation levels...Americans today have an appetite for the truth. For decades, Americans were brainwashed into believing anything the mainstream media said as the truth...

The politicians and corporate elites who control the media are becoming very scared. Although NIA is not a supporter of Assange, we are a supporter of constitutional rights and there is no more important constitutional right than our freedom of speech. If Americans don't take a stand now to protect their freedom of speech, the U.S. government soon might make it a crime...

If there is one American who deserves to be charged with treason, it is Federal Reserve Chairman Ben Bernanke. Bernanke, this past Sunday on '60 Minutes', outright lied to the American public when he said that the Federal Reserve isn't printing money. Less than two years earlier on the same television program, Bernanke admitted that the Federal Reserve is printing money.



However, back then, nobody was questioning the Federal Reserve's actions. Thanks to alternative media organizations that have worked tirelessly to help expose the Federal Reserve's dangerous and destructive actions, Americans are starting to finally question the Federal Reserve and Bernanke is now clearly on the defensive. ...

Bernanke's misinformation campaign is similar to what took place in Weimar Germany in the 1920s when they experienced hyperinflation. In Weimar Germany, the misinformed public always focused on rising prices, but never understood that prices were rising because the German Mark was losing its purchasing power.

The Germans believed that there was a shortage of Marks and it was therefore necessary to print as many marks as possible. Germans placed all of the blame for their crisis on the symptoms of inflation. They blamed greedy tourists, selfish industrialists and profiteers, the wage demands of laborers, speculators in Germany who were buying foreign currencies and sending their wealth out of the country, and other nations that were buying up German assets with foreign currencies. They failed to grasp that it was their government's own printing of Marks and increasing the money supply that caused the inflationary disease.

... he [Bernanke] claims to have the tools to unwind the Federal Reserve's massive asset purchases. He is trying to trick the world into believing that he has the ability to pinpoint an exact time in which the U.S. economy is recovering without massive price inflation, where he can exit his inflationary strategy before prices start to dramatically rise. Bernanke has no exit strategy that he can implement without sending the U.S. economy into the next Great Depression."



well, fuck. ...so our only option is to take things back into our own hands, true freedom of speech, i'm with the whistler blowers -- the world is twisted, sister.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

bruce




ain't good enough for you

Well you don’t like, don’t like the way I walk
And you don’t like, don’t like the way I talk
You criticize about me endlessly
Like it defies how you got stuck with me

And you complain about the clothes I wear
And you explain there's other boys out there
And you complain my car makes too much noise
And then you cry I’m always out with the boys

I give up little darling, no matter what I do
Hey, you know it's true, ain't good enough for you

You complain the way I love you at night
You explain I’m really not your type
If we go out you say I’m such a boy
If you stay in say what are we living for?

Understand there’s nothing I can do
There ain't no way I can satisfy you
And then at night, I lean in for a kiss
Here comes a pitch, Swing and a miss!

Oh o, I quit little darling, yeah, no matter what I do
Girl, you know it's true, ain't good enough for you

Oh o, hey hey little darling, no matter what I do
Girl, you know it’s true, ain't good enough for you

I tried to change, I got a job in sales
I bought a shirt uptown in Bloomingdales
And babe I tried to make the latest’s scene
Hidden cool just like Jimmy Iovine

I bought a record with all the latest grooves
A book of love with all the latest moves
I brought some flowers and I went out your door
And you came out didn’t wanna see me

Oh o, I quit little darling, no matter what I do
Girl, you know it’s true, ain't good enough for you

No matter what I do
Girl, you know it’s true, ain't good enough for you

Thursday, December 2, 2010

today in the doom & gloom column:

China Importing U.S. Food Inflation - courtesy of the national inflation association (NIA)



With the mainstream media once again being distracted by the debt crisis in Europe, a much larger crisis has been breaking out in China. China has been hit hard in recent weeks with massive food inflation. Food prices in China have risen by 10% during the past month, including a 20% rise in fruits and vegetables. McDonald's recently announced that they will be rising prices for products in all of their stores in China, including a $0.15 increase for Chicken McNuggets. Kweichow Moutai Co., China’s largest liquor maker, is expected to raise prices on their products by 24% this month.

In NIA's top 10 predictions for 2010, NIA predicted there would be major food shortages around the world. The China Banking Regulatory Commission is now admitting that there are severe shortages in China of corn, cotton, sugar, and other crops. China is now selling food from its state reserves in an attempt to keep food inflation under control. The Chinese government now fears that if they don't do more to combat food inflation, they will soon experience a massive outbreak of civil unrest across the country. In fact, last week a group of high school students in the Guizhou province started a riot in the school cafeteria over a $0.07 increase in the cost of a school meal; they shattered windows and destroyed tables, countertops, and chairs.

A $0.07 increase in school lunch prices might not seem like a lot to Americans, because Americans only spend about 13% of their annual expenditures on food. If a family of four in the U.S. earns less than $28,665 per year, their children get a free school lunch. If more than 50% of the children in a town qualify for free lunches, everybody gets a free lunch. 31 million American children are now receiving free lunches. Chinese children don't receive any free lunches and most poor families in China spend approximately 50% of their income on food.

So what is China's solution before food riots break out in every school and McDonald's nationwide? We are seeing signs that the Chinese government is going to implement price controls. We are hearing reports that in some Chinese cities, price controls have already been imposed on four main vegetables. NIA fears that China will soon impose price controls on dairy products like milk and eggs, as well as on meat, grain, and cooking oil. China might also impose price controls on energy commodities like oil, diesel, natural gas, and coal.

The inflation that Chinese citizens are currently suffering from is inflation that China is needlessly importing from the U.S. The solution to China's inflationary crisis is simple, they should allow the yuan to appreciate in value. China's currency is currently artificially low because they are keeping it pegged to the U.S. dollar. As the Federal Reserve prints money, China's central bank also prints enough money to keep the yuan's exchange rate with the U.S. dollar stable. This is done entirely to help Chinese export companies, but it is causing Chinese citizens to suffer.

If China allowed the free market to determine the exchange rate of the yuan, not only will their inflation problem be solved, but China will see massive short-term deflation where Chinese citizens see a massive increase in the purchasing power of their currency. When a government implements price controls, it is interfering in the free market and not allowing the free market to function efficiently. Price controls never work because the free market is always stronger than government. Price controls in China will likely lead to empty store shelves and hour long lines at gas stations. Price controls will also likely lead to the creation of a new underground economy in China where Chinese citizens buy and sell food and other goods in the black market, at prices that are determined by the free market.

While NIA has strongly been encouraging Americans to stock up on and store agricultural products, China is making it illegal to hoard food. Garlic prices in China have nearly doubled from one year ago, so China's National Development and Reform Commission (NDRC) decided to fine the Shandong Price Bureau, a local garlic seller, 100,000 yuan or approximately $15,000 for illegally cornering the garlic market to force up the price. The NDRC also fined Jilin Corn Central Wholesale Market Ltd. 1 million yuan or approximately $150,000 for colluding with their competitors to jack up the price of beans.

No individual corporation has the power to drive up agricultural commodity prices substantially on their own. Yet, China's government is blaming speculators for rising food and energy prices, without realizing it is the Chinese government's own manipulation of the yuan that is causing massive food price inflation. When Chinese citizens and businesses hoard commodities, they are not doing it to artificially manipulate commodity prices higher, they are doing it to protect themselves from the government's dangerous and destructive actions.

The same food inflation crisis that China is currently experiencing will likely hit the U.S. in early 2011, only much worse. NIA believes it is only a matter of time before Congress places the blame for rapidly rising U.S. food prices on American "speculators" who are buying agricultural commodity ETFs and "hoarders" who have food storage at home. While China can easily solve their food inflation crisis by allowing the yuan to strengthen, the U.S. will have no way of solving its upcoming food inflation crisis. Despite the U.S. being a major producer of agricultural products and being mostly self-sufficient, oil is a very important commodity used in agriculture production and the U.S. needs to import most of its oil. Oil prices hit a new 52-week high last month of about $88 per barrel.

It is also important to realize that agricultural commodities now trade on the international market. Americans are now competing against the rest of the world for the consumption of food. The U.S. just raised its forecast for fiscal year 2011 agricultural commodity exports to $126.5 billion, up $13.5 billion from its last estimate three months ago. They didn't raise this estimate by 12% because the U.S. is increasing production, they raised it as an admission that high agricultural commodity prices are here to stay.

In recent weeks, the mainstream media in the U.S. has been running nightly reports about large crowds at U.S. shopping malls. The media has been hyping up "Black Friday" and "Cyber Monday" as signs that the U.S. recession is over and U.S. consumers are once again confident and spending money. The truth is, the only reason shopping malls are full is because U.S. retailers have not been passing on their wholesale price increases to consumers.

NIA has been hearing reports from NIA members who own import/export companies and have direct access to sales sheets that show both the wholesale and retail prices of products at some of our nation's largest retailers. All indications are that many of the largest U.S. retailers are seeing as much as a 80% decline in their profit margins on some products, compared to one year ago. Shopping malls may be full, but shareholders of retail stocks may be shocked in early 2011 when retailers miss on their bottom line profit forecasts. With the S&P Retail Index hitting a new 52-week high on Wednesday of 501.17, up 31% since the beginning of July, there is a lot of downside risk in retail stocks at the present time. When stock prices of retailers fall, management will be forced to raise prices in U.S. retail stores.

U.S. 10-year bond yields rose by 17 basis points on Wednesday to 2.97%, a new four-month high. The mainstream media is proclaiming that bond yields are rising due to an ADP Employment Services report out on Wednesday that U.S. businesses added 93,000 jobs in November. We consider these ADP numbers to be meaningless. The Conference Board just reported Wednesday that new online help wanted ads by U.S. businesses in November were 2.575 million, down 2.6% from 2.6425 million in October, indicating that U.S. businesses are looking to hire less people. Interest rates are not rising because the U.S. employment situation is getting better, they are rising because the U.S. bond bubble is getting ready to burst due to massive inflation.

When the bond bubble bursts, not only will China stop increasing their U.S. treasury purchases, but they will likely dump the U.S. treasuries they already own. One of the main reasons China has been so reluctant to dump their U.S. treasuries until now is because there are many asset bubbles forming in China that they want to deflate slowly without causing them to collapse. Real Estate in Beijing is now being priced at 27 times the average worker's income in the city. China has a glut of unused capacity in factories and commercial office buildings. If these factories and office buildings aren't filled now, when times are good, think about what will happen when the U.S. dollar collapses and China is forced to go through a two or three year adjustment period of finding new buyers for the products they produce.

There are many export companies in China that will likely go bankrupt later this decade when Americans can no longer afford to import their products. To avoid this, China has been encouraged to continue rapidly expanding its foreign exchange reserves, which are mostly held in U.S. dollars. NIA believes that China shouldn't be concerned about the short-term, but must focus on the long-term growth of the country. Although in the short-term China might do better by keeping the U.S. dollar propped up for a little while longer, over the long-term the Chinese will be much better off when they no longer need to support our phony standard of living. Chinese government officials need to realize that over a dozen of the largest U.S. railroads went bankrupt in the 1930s, but the U.S. still went through its greatest era of prosperity from 1945-1973, which led to the country becoming the world's superpower.

If China wants to become the world's new superpower, they need to allow Chinese businesses that export to the U.S. to either go bankrupt or find new buyers of their products. Sure, the stock and bond holders will get wiped out, but the infrastructure will still be there. Those who are invested into gold and silver today will have the resources to buy up cheap Chinese assets out of bankruptcy years down the road. Although the first and second tranche investors in China may lose everything, those who buy up these assets out of bankruptcy will be positioned to prosper during what could be a future 25 year boom period for China when their citizens are no longer forced to prop up the U.S. economy
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more info at: http://inflation.us

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

pass on the luv

i hope this gets to you: a viral love letter



"The video was put together by a guy named Walter C. May and his roommates—who just happen to be in a band called The Daylights. It was posted on YouTube yesterday and has since then been tweeted about by May's friends, random strangers, and even Katy Perry.

But May's girlfriend, for whom the video was made, hasn't seen it yet.

That's because May wanted the video to reach her organically—through tweets, links passed between friends, and blog posts. He wanted to show his girl that they "can feel close without having to be close every day," and that their relationship can remain strong even though they'll be thousands of miles apart over the next two years."


cute. thought i'd help out :]

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

horizons soon to be




i have officially been offered, and accepted, a spot in the Sowing Seeds Practicum at the UBC Farm!

Friday, November 26, 2010

listening




please forgive me,
sweet disposition,
don't answer the door,
smooth operator,

color blind,
unemployed in the summertime,
i'm on fire,
baby let me kiss you,

bedroom dancing,
me & mr. jones,
same place, same time,
don't stand so close to me...

i got the blues


Friday, November 19, 2010

he's don draper




ok, ok.....so, he's a man whore....but he's don draper.





so, he drinks like a fish and smokes like a chimney. but he's don draper...oh, and look, he reads. yum.




and so now i, full of delusion, expect to run into him, while walking down the office hallways, drop my files that i was so attentively carrying and --- urgh.


it will never happen, face it.



Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Hipster: The Dead End of Western Civilization

i have been trying to find the words for my frustration about our generation for quite some time. today, i have found them. unfortunately, they are not my words, but those of a young canadian writer, Douglas Haddow...(he has a blog too: http://pblks.com/)...read on, read on:

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I‘m sipping a scummy pint of cloudy beer in the back of a trendy dive bar turned nightclub in the heart of the city’s heroin district. In front of me stand a gang of hippiesh grunge-punk types, who crowd around each other and collectively scoff at the smoking laws by sneaking puffs of “fuck-you,” reveling in their perceived rebellion as the haggard, staggering staff look on without the slightest concern.

The “DJ” is keystroking a selection of MP3s off his MacBook, making a mix that sounds like he took a hatchet to a collection of yesteryear billboard hits, from DMX to Dolly Parton, but mashed up with a jittery techno backbeat.

So… this is a hipster party?” I ask the girl sitting next to me. She’s wearing big dangling earrings, an American Apparel V-neck tee, non-prescription eyeglasses and an inappropriately warm wool coat.

Yeah, just look around you, 99 percent of the people here are total hipsters!”

Are you a hipster?”

Fuck no,” she says, laughing back the last of her glass before she hops off to the dance floor.

Ever since the Allies bombed the Axis into submission, Western civilization has had a succession of counter-culture movements that have energetically challenged the status quo. Each successive decade of the post-war era has seen it smash social standards, riot and fight to revolutionize every aspect of music, art, government and civil society.

But after punk was plasticized and hip hop lost its impetus for social change, all of the formerly dominant streams of “counter-culture” have merged together. Now, one mutating, trans-Atlantic melting pot of styles, tastes and behavior has come to define the generally indefinable idea of the “Hipster.”

An artificial appropriation of different styles from different eras, the hipster represents the end of Western civilization – a culture lost in the superficiality of its past and unable to create any new meaning. Not only is it unsustainable, it is suicidal. While previous youth movements have challenged the dysfunction and decadence of their elders, today we have the “hipster” – a youth subculture that mirrors the doomed shallowness of mainstream society.


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Take a stroll down the street in any major North American or European city and you’ll be sure to see a speckle of fashion-conscious twentysomethings hanging about and sporting a number of predictable stylistic trademarks: skinny jeans, cotton spandex leggings, fixed-gear bikes, vintage flannel, fake eyeglasses and a keffiyeh – initially sported by Jewish students and Western protesters to express solidarity with Palestinians, the keffiyeh has become a completely meaningless hipster cliché fashion accessory.

The American Apparel V-neck shirt, Pabst Blue Ribbon beer and Parliament cigarettes are symbols and icons of working or revolutionary classes that have been appropriated by hipsterdom and drained of meaning. Ten years ago, a man wearing a plain V-neck tee and drinking a Pabst would never be accused of being a trend-follower. But in 2008, such things have become shameless clichés of a class of individuals that seek to escape their own wealth and privilege by immersing themselves in the aesthetic of the working class.

This obsession with “street-cred” reaches its apex of absurdity as hipsters have recently and wholeheartedly adopted the fixed-gear bike as the only acceptable form of transportation – only to have brakes installed on a piece of machinery that is defined by its lack thereof.

Lovers of apathy and irony, hipsters are connected through a global network of blogs and shops that push forth a global vision of fashion-informed aesthetics. Loosely associated with some form of creative output, they attend art parties, take lo-fi pictures with analog cameras, ride their bikes to night clubs and sweat it up at nouveau disco-coke parties. The hipster tends to religiously blog about their daily exploits, usually while leafing through generation-defining magazines like Vice, Another Magazine and Wallpaper. This cursory and stylized lifestyle has made the hipster almost universally loathed.

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These hipster zombies… are the idols of the style pages, the darlings of viral marketers and the marks of predatory real-estate agents,” wrote Christian Lorentzen in a Time Out New York article entitled ‘Why the Hipster Must Die.’ “And they must be buried for cool to be reborn.”

With nothing to defend, uphold or even embrace, the idea of “hipsterdom” is left wide open for attack. And yet, it is this ironic lack of authenticity that has allowed hipsterdom to grow into a global phenomenon that is set to consume the very core of Western counterculture. Most critics make a point of attacking the hipster’s lack of individuality, but it is this stubborn obfuscation that distinguishes them from their predecessors, while allowing hipsterdom to easily blend in and mutate other social movements, sub-cultures and lifestyles.

***

Standing outside an art-party next to a neat row of locked-up fixed-gear bikes, I come across a couple girls who exemplify hipster homogeneity. I ask one of the girls if her being at an art party and wearing fake eyeglasses, leggings and a flannel shirt makes her a hipster.

I’m not comfortable with that term,” she replies.

Her friend adds, with just a flicker of menace in her eyes, “Yeah, I don’t know, you shouldn’t use that word, it’s just…”

“Offensive?”

No… it’s just, well… if you don’t know why then you just shouldn’t even use it.”

Ok, so what are you girls doing tonight after this party?”

Ummm… We’re going to the after-party.”

***

Gavin McInnes, one of the founders of Vice, who recently left the magazine, is considered to be one of hipsterdom’s primary architects. But, in contrast to the majority of concerned media-types, McInnes, whose “Dos and Don’ts” commentary defined the rules of hipster fashion for over a decade, is more critical of those doing the criticizing.

I’ve always found that word [“hipster”] is used with such disdain, like it’s always used by chubby bloggers who aren’t getting laid anymore and are bored, and they’re just so mad at these young kids for going out and getting wasted and having fun and being fashionable,” he says. “I’m dubious of these hypotheses because they always smell of an agenda.”

Punks wear their tattered threads and studded leather jackets with honor, priding themselves on their innovative and cheap methods of self-expression and rebellion. B-boys and b-girls announce themselves to anyone within earshot with baggy gear and boomboxes. But it is rare, if not impossible, to find an individual who will proclaim themself a proud hipster. It’s an odd dance of self-identity – adamantly denying your existence while wearing clearly defined symbols that proclaims it.

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He’s 17 and he lives for the scene!” a girl whispers in my ear as I sneak a photo of a young kid dancing up against a wall in a dimly lit corner of the after-party. He’s got a flipped-out, do-it-yourself haircut, skin-tight jeans, leather jacket, a vintage punk tee and some popping high tops.

Shoot me,” he demands, walking up, cigarette in mouth, striking a pose and exhaling. He hits a few different angles with a firmly unimpressed expression and then gets a bit giddy when I show him the results.

Rad, thanks,” he says, re-focusing on the music and submerging himself back into the sweaty funk of the crowd where he resumes a jittery head bobble with a little bit of a twitch.

The dance floor at a hipster party looks like it should be surrounded by quotation marks. While punk, disco and hip hop all had immersive, intimate and energetic dance styles that liberated the dancer from his/her mental states – be it the head-spinning b-boy or violent thrashings of a live punk show – the hipster has more of a joke dance. A faux shrug shuffle that mocks the very idea of dancing or, at its best, illustrates a non-committal fear of expression typified in a weird twitch/ironic twist. The dancers are too self-aware to let themselves feel any form of liberation; they shuffle along, shrugging themselves into oblivion.

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Perhaps the true motivation behind this deliberate nonchalance is an attempt to attract the attention of the ever-present party photographers, who swim through the crowd like neon sharks, flashing little blasts of phosphorescent ecstasy whenever they spot someone worth momentarily immortalizing.

Noticing a few flickers of light splash out from the club bathroom, I peep in only to find one such photographer taking part in an impromptu soft-core porno shoot. Two girls and a guy are taking off their clothes and striking poses for a set of grimy glamour shots. It’s all grins and smirks until another girl pokes her head inside and screeches, “You’re not some club kid in New York in the nineties. This shit is so hipster!” – which sparks a bit of a catfight, causing me to beat a hasty retreat.

In many ways, the lifestyle promoted by hipsterdom is highly ritualized. Many of the party-goers who are subject to the photoblogger’s snapshots no doubt crawl out of bed the next afternoon and immediately re-experience the previous night’s debauchery. Red-eyed and bleary, they sit hunched over their laptops, wading through a sea of similarity to find their own (momentarily) thrilling instant of perfected hipster-ness.

What they may or may not know is that “cool-hunters” will also be skulking the same sites, taking note of how they dress and what they consume. These marketers and party-promoters get paid to co-opt youth culture and then re-sell it back at a profit. In the end, hipsters are sold what they think they invent and are spoon-fed their pre-packaged cultural livelihood.

Hipsterdom is the first “counterculture” to be born under the advertising industry’s microscope, leaving it open to constant manipulation but also forcing its participants to continually shift their interests and affiliations. Less a subculture, the hipster is a consumer group – using their capital to purchase empty authenticity and rebellion. But the moment a trend, band, sound, style or feeling gains too much exposure, it is suddenly looked upon with disdain. Hipsters cannot afford to maintain any cultural loyalties or affiliations for fear they will lose relevance.

An amalgamation of its own history, the youth of the West are left with consuming cool rather that creating it. The cultural zeitgeists of the past have always been sparked by furious indignation and are reactionary movements. But the hipster’s self-involved and isolated maintenance does nothing to feed cultural evolution. Western civilization’s well has run dry. The only way to avoid hitting the colossus of societal failure that looms over the horizon is for the kids to abandon this vain existence and start over.

***

If you don’t give a damn, we don’t give a fuck!” chants an emcee before his incitements are abruptly cut short when the power plug is pulled and the lights snapped on.

Dawn breaks and the last of the after-after-parties begin to spill into the streets. The hipsters are falling out, rubbing their eyes and scanning the surrounding landscape for the way back from which they came. Some hop on their fixed-gear bikes, some call for cabs, while a few of us hop a fence and cut through the industrial wasteland of a nearby condo development.

The half-built condos tower above us like foreboding monoliths of our yuppie futures. I take a look at one of the girls wearing a bright pink keffiyah and carrying a Polaroid camera and think, “If only we carried rocks instead of cameras, we’d look like revolutionaries.” But instead we ignore the weapons that lie at our feet – oblivious to our own impending demise.

We are a lost generation, desperately clinging to anything that feels real, but too afraid to become it ourselves. We are a defeated generation, resigned to the hypocrisy of those before us, who once sang songs of rebellion and now sell them back to us. We are the last generation, a culmination of all previous things, destroyed by the vapidity that surrounds us. The hipster represents the end of Western civilization – a culture so detached and disconnected that it has stopped giving birth to anything new.

lists & lists






  1. If you hate doing it, stop it.
  2. Don’t try to read other people’s minds. Don’t make other people try to read yours. Communicate, damn it!
  3. Don’t try to please everyone. Just do what you know is right.
  4. Write things down; make lists.
  5. Relocate closer to your place of employment.
  6. Spend time with nice people who are smart, driven, and like-minded.
  7. Say “I love you” to your loved ones as often as possible.
  8. Let go of things you can’t change. Concentrate on things you can.
  9. Follow your heart. Don’t waste your life fulfilling someone else’s dreams and desires.
  10. However good or bad a situation is now, it will change. Accept this simple fact...this too shall pass ;)
  11. Mature, but don’t grow up too fast.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

i'm like fly paper for the emotionally disturbed - good thing i am one of them

today...is all about hank:

"Do we think the ladies have gone too far with the sex positive feminism? I mean I know they're all down with the pornography and the shaved pudenda and what not, but do we really think this is the path to liberation?"

hmm...no, it is not the path of liberation, but i say let's just ride that wave for a little longer, while u still can shave ur pudenda (wow, what a word) and look hot in something outrageously expensive for such little material. you can always grow a bush, delete ur porn and buy a cardigan sweater set later...

"Just the fact that people seem to be getting dumber and dumber. You know, I mean we have all this amazing technology and yet computers have turned into basically four figure wank machines. The internet was supposed to set us free, democratize us, but all it's really given us is Howard Dean's aborted candidacy and 24 hour a day access to kiddie porn. People... they don't write anymore, they blog. Instead of talking, they text, no punctuation, no grammar: LOL this and LMFAO that. You know, it just seems to me it's just a bunch of stupid people pseudo-communicating with a bunch of other stupid people at a proto-language that resembles more what cavemen used to speak than the King's English."

agreed....wtf is blogging anyway but a lame, pussy excuse for writing

"Are you sexually harassing me right now? Because if you are, I think I'm going to have to report you - for giving me a serious boner."

yum!

Monday, November 8, 2010

"Mayonaise"





Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June

We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream

And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad

When I can, I will
Words defy the plan
When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Sunday, November 7, 2010

life.






everytime i think it can't get any worse,
something comes along & fucking takes the cake.

Monday, November 1, 2010

i love u

i am finally watching 'this is it'...makes me miss michael :( i adored him from day one and always will.














dare i say, a mozart of our time...?

for leah:




Catherine: What do we do now, Nick?

Nick: Fuck like minks, raise rugrats and live happily ever after.

Catherine: Hate rugrats.

Nick: Fuck like minks, forget the rugrats, and live happily ever after.


Sunday, October 31, 2010

alice & alice




a little bit of nice






....& a whole lotta spice....

happy halloween :]

Friday, October 29, 2010

Please Forgive Me



Please forgive me

If I act a little strange

For I know not what I do.

Feels like lightning running through my veins

Everytime I look at you


Everytime I look at you


Help me out here

All my words are falling short

And there's so much I want to say

Want to tell you just how good it feels

When you look at me that way


When you look at me that way


Throw a stone and watch the ripples flow

Moving out across the bay

Like a stone I fall into your eyes

Deep into some mystery


Deep into that mystery


I got half a mind to scream out loud

I got half a mind to die

So I won't ever have to lose you girl

Won't ever have to say goodbye

I won't ever have to lie

Won't ever have to say goodbye


Please forgive me

If I act alittle strangeFor I know not what I do

It's like my head is filled with lightning girl

Everytime I look at you


Everytime I look at you

-- David Gray

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Dear Reader's Digest....here's some food for thought for you





ok, i know i am a cow when it comes to most things in life - but one of my biggest pet peeves is the nutrition/ diet industry. i came across this 'smart' article, advising parents about 'Healthier Halloween Treats' for kids.

Some of their brilliant suggestions include:

Sugar-Free Gum

Avoid these: Chewy candies, which are very high in sugar. They are unhealthy and can stick to teeth and cause cavities.
Try these instead: Fruit-flavoured, sugar-free gum. It has the delicious taste kids love, minus the excessive quantities of sugar.


Oh right.....because sugar is the devil and ASPARTAME is good for you??? wow. hey, here's some food for thought - there is a shitload of candy available that are made with natural food coloring, no artificial flavors or additives, without toxic chemicals (such as aspartame) and use plain sugar instead of high-fructose corn syrup...Sure, the kids are going to be high as kites on all the sugar - but who cares?? - it's halloween! let them go frickin' crazy for all i care, just don't poison your (and other ppl's) kids for the sake of convenience, fad-diets, or your own cheapness....


Portion-Controlled Packs

Avoid these: Sugar-filled snack cakes.
Try these instead: 100-calorie, portion-controlled packages of cookies, pretzels, etc. The limited quantities are healthier for children and the goods contain way less fat and sugar than snack cakes. Plus, 100-calorie bags of Oreo cookies are just as delicious!

Great idea - portion control your junk [insert sarcastic tone here]. here's a question: what's in an oreo?

Ingredients: SUGAR, ENRICHED FLOUR (WHEAT FLOUR, NIACIN, REDUCED IRON, THIAMINE MONONITRATE {VITAMIN B1}, RIBOFLAVIN {VITAMIN B2}, FOLIC ACID), HIGH OLEIC CANOLA OIL AND/OR PALM OIL AND/OR CANOLA OIL, AND/OR SOYBEAN OIL, COCOA (PROCESSED WITH ALKALI), HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP, CORNSTARCH, LEAVENING (BAKING SODA AND/OR CALCIUM PHOSPHATE), SALT, SOY LECITHIN (EMULSIFIER), VANILLIN - AN ARTIFICIAL FLAVOR, CHOCOLATE. CONTAINS: WHEAT, SOY.

oh my god - there's chocolate in it! ?! last ingredient though, which means close to nada. those stupid 100 calorie pack of artificial food, called 'snacks' are so retarded. sure calories intake and output is important, but it's senseless if you're eating food that isn't actual food. junk is junk and i don't think it matters if you have one or 100. it's called marketing, and you just bought into it.


Chocolate

Avoid these: Chocolate filled with caramel, nuts, nougat and other high-calorie sweets.
Try these instead: Sweet, dark chocolate. It’s rich in chocolaty flavour but has way less calories than heavier milk chocolate bars.


ok - i do agree with this one, but it's completely unrealistic. children don't like dark chocolate (unless they are 40 yrs old at the age of 5). it's pointless to hand a kid a square of dark chocolate, cause it'll be traded (to a younger, less experienced trick or treater) in less than 10 seconds - it's more about quality fun chocolate over junky palm oil stuff...just cause it's cheap and readily available at costco or walmart (there's the real devil, whole 'nother post though). doesn't mean you have to buy it. read the label; be a smart consumer.

all in all --- it's HALLOWEEN. let them have all the fun they want. buy a new toothbrush and give away 'real candy', sans chemicals. that's my 2 cents for today.....oh, right - and f' you, Reader's Digest.


http://www.readersdigest.ca/health/cms/xcms/healthier-halloween-treats_4390_a.html

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

so i like the anti-christ...

Columbine: Whose Fault Is It?

by Marilyn Manson


It is sad to think that the first few people on earth needed no books, movies, games or music to inspire cold-blooded murder. The day that Cain bashed his brother Abel's brains in, the only motivation he needed was his own human disposition to violence. Whether you interpret the Bible as literature or as the final word of whatever God may be, Christianity has given us an image of death and sexuality that we have based our culture around. A half-naked dead man hangs in most homes and around our necks, and we have just taken that for granted all our lives. Is it a symbol of hope or hopelessness? The world's most famous murder-suicide was also the birth of the death icon -- the blueprint for celebrity. Unfortunately, for all of their inspiring morality, nowhere in the Gospels is intelligence praised as a virtue.


A lot of people forget or never realize that I started my band as a criticism of these very issues of despair and hypocrisy. The name Marilyn Manson has never celebrated the sad fact that America puts killers on the cover of Time magazine, giving them as much notoriety as our favorite movie stars. From Jesse James to Charles Manson, the media, since their inception, have turned criminals into folk heroes. They just created two new ones when they plastered those dipshits Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris' pictures on the front of every newspaper. Don't be surprised if every kid who gets pushed around has two new idols.


We applaud the creation of a bomb whose sole purpose is to destroy all of mankind, and we grow up watching our president's brains splattered all over Texas. Times have not become more violent. They have just become more televised. Does anyone think the Civil War was the least bit civil? If television had existed, you could be sure they would have been there to cover it, or maybe even participate in it, like their violent car chase of Princess Di. Disgusting vultures looking for corpses, exploiting, fucking, filming and serving it up for our hungry appetites in a gluttonous display of endless human stupidity.


When it comes down to who's to blame for the high school murders in Littleton, Colorado, throw a rock and you'll hit someone who's guilty. We're the people who sit back and tolerate children owning guns, and we're the ones who tune in and watch the up-to-the-minute details of what they do with them. I think it's terrible when anyone dies, especially if it is someone you know and love. But what is more offensive is that when these tragedies happen, most people don't really care any more than they would about the season finale of Friends or The Real World. I was dumbfounded as I watched the media snake right in, not missing a teardrop, interviewing the parents of dead children, televising the funerals. Then came the witch hunt.


Man's greatest fear is chaos. It was unthinkable that these kids did not have a simple black-and-white reason for their actions. And so a scapegoat was needed. I remember hearing the initial reports from Littleton, that Harris and Klebold were wearing makeup and were dressed like Marilyn Manson, whom they obviously must worship, since they were dressed in black. Of course, speculation snowballed into making me the poster boy for everything that is bad in the world. These two idiots weren't wearing makeup, and they weren't dressed like me or like goths. Since Middle America has not heard of the music they did listen to (KMFDM and Rammstein, among others), the media picked something they thought was similar.


Responsible journalists have reported with less publicity that Harris and Klebold were not Marilyn Manson fans -- that they even disliked my music. Even if they were fans, that gives them no excuse, nor does it mean that music is to blame. Did we look for James Huberty's inspiration when he gunned down people at McDonald's? What did Timothy McVeigh like to watch? What about David Koresh, Jim Jones? Do you think entertainment inspired Kip Kinkel, or should we blame the fact that his father bought him the guns he used in the Springfield, Oregon, murders? What inspires Bill Clinton to blow people up in Kosovo? Was it something that Monica Lewinsky said to him? Isn't killing just killing, regardless if it's in Vietnam or Jonesboro, Arkansas? Why do we justify one, just because it seems to be for the right reasons? Should there ever be a right reason? If a kid is old enough to drive a car or buy a gun, isn't he old enough to be held personally responsible for what he does with his car or gun? Or if he's a teenager, should someone else be blamed because he isn't as enlightened as an eighteen-year-old?



America loves to find an icon to hang its guilt on. But, admittedly, I have assumed the role of Antichrist; I am the Nineties voice of individuality, and people tend to associate anyone who looks and behaves differently with illegal or immoral activity. Deep down, most adults hate people who go against the grain. It's comical that people are naive enough to have forgotten Elvis, Jim Morrison and Ozzy so quickly. All of them were subjected to the same age-old arguments, scrutiny and prejudice. I wrote a song called "Lunchbox," and some journalists have interpreted it as a song about guns. Ironically, the song is about being picked on and fighting back with my Kiss lunch box, which I used as a weapon on the playground. In 1979, metal lunch boxes were banned because they were considered dangerous weapons in the hands of delinquents. I also wrote a song called "Get Your Gunn." The title is spelled with two n's because the song was a reaction to the murder of Dr. David Gunn, who was killed in Florida by pro-life activists while I was living there. That was the ultimate hypocrisy I witnessed growing up: that these people killed someone in the name of being "pro-life."


The somewhat positive messages of these songs are usually the ones that sensationalists misinterpret as promoting the very things I am decrying. Right now, everyone is thinking of how they can prevent things like Littleton. How do you prevent AIDS, world war, depression, car crashes? We live in a free country, but with that freedom there is a burden of personal responsibility. Rather than teaching a child what is moral and immoral, right and wrong, we first and foremost can establish what the laws that govern us are. You can always escape hell by not believing in it, but you cannot escape death and you cannot escape prison.


It is no wonder that kids are growing up more cynical; they have a lot of information in front of them. They can see that they are living in a world that's made of bullshit. In the past, there was always the idea that you could turn and run and start something better. But now America has become one big mall, and because of the Internet and all of the technology we have, there's nowhere to run. People are the same everywhere. Sometimes music, movies and books are the only things that let us feel like someone else feels like we do. I've always tried to let people know it's OK, or better, if you don't fit into the program. Use your imagination -- if some geek from Ohio can become something, why can't anyone else with the willpower and creativity?


I chose not to jump into the media frenzy and defend myself, though I was begged to be on every single TV show in existence. I didn't want to contribute to these fame-seeking journalists and opportunists looking to fill their churches or to get elected because of their self-righteous finger-pointing. They want to blame entertainment? Isn't religion the first real entertainment? People dress up in costumes, sing songs and dedicate themselves in eternal fandom. Everyone will agree that nothing was more entertaining than Clinton shooting off his prick and then his bombs in true political form. And the news -- that's obvious. So is entertainment to blame? I'd like media commentators to ask themselves, because their coverage of the event was some of the most gruesome entertainment any of us have seen.


I think that the National Rifle Association is far too powerful to take on, so most people choose Doom, The Basketball Diaries or yours truly. This kind of controversy does not help me sell records or tickets, and I wouldn't want it to. I'm a controversial artist, one who dares to have an opinion and bothers to create music and videos that challenge people's ideas in a world that is watered-down and hollow. In my work I examine the America we live in, and I've always tried to show people that the devil we blame our atrocities on is really just each one of us. So don't expect the end of the world to come one day out of the blue -- it's been happening every day for a long time.


MARILYN MANSON
(May 28, 1999)

Posted May 28, 1999 12:00 AM

shame....






A Mexican soldier arranges blocks of marijuana, weighing a total of 46 tons, before they are incinerated at a military base in the border city of Tijuana May 11, 2010. (REUTERS/Jorge Duenes)

uh - may - zing

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Wednesday, October 13, 2010

wildflower, me



You belong among the wildflowers
You belong in a boat out at sea
Sail away, kill off the hours
You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, find you a lover
Go away somewhere bright and new
I have seen no other
Who compares with you

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong in a boat out at sea
You belong with your love on your arm
You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, go find a lover
Run away, let your heart be your guide
You deserve the deepest of cover
You belong in that home by and by

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong somewhere close to me
Far away from your trouble and worry
You belong somewhere you feel free
You belong somewhere you feel free

--tom petty, 'wildflowers'